Britney Spears appears to be referencing her conservatorship in a since-deleted poem that she published on social media.
The 41-year-old “…Baby One More Time” pop star took to Instagram on Thursday night (July 28) to share what she described as “a tease for a little project on the way.”
Her tease was a lengthy video that featured a poem full of apparent references to what her life was life while she was under the control of her father Jamie Spears.
Head inside to read Britney Spears’ full poem…
“I want attention at my pace / And have a car, and leave this place / I never cried not one time / I worked 10 hours a day / 4 months a slave / No days off, and no you can’t play / No door for a room and watched me / changed, watched me shower,” Britney wrote.
The segment appears to refer to her time in a treatment center, which she testified to being forced into while speaking in court in 2021. Her testimony also included references to having an IUD for birth control that was implanted without her consent.
Britney directly refences her family later in the poem, writing, “My family says so / Watched me bathe, sit down behave . We ask the questions / We’re here to save you / Save me from what?”
“I should have died I’m not gone lie,” she continued.
She also addressed her state of mind after being freed from the conservatorship in late 2021. More specifically, she made it clear that she’d be fighting for herself.
“I’m so kind, I’m for free / Think again my friends / Think again / I’d murder / Put a smile on my face / To save my grace I’d kill’em,” she wrote.
Britney made a reference to her sister Jamie Lynn Spears in the caption, saying that she wrote her message in a similar fashion. Jamie Lynn opened up about their relationship in an interview earlier this month.
It’s not entirely clear what project Britney is teasing, but it is likely her memoir The Woman in Me, which will arrive on October 24. After dropping a new song called “Mind Your Business” with Will.i.am, there have also been rumors about new music. Her collaborator fed into them in an interview of his own.
Read a transcription of Britney Spears’ poem below…
In the middle or did you get ‘em?
The thieves are little,
They serve like skittles
The pain no walk, we say when you talk
The pain no walk, we say when you talk
My feet, Jesus tell me why
You know I move when I’m alive
They took my feet, demoralized
Emphasized my face, they wanted my mind
We want to see your face
We want to see your face
I want attention at my pace
And have a car, and leave this place
I never cried not one time
I worked 10 hours a day
4 months a slave
No days off, and no you can’t play
No door for a room and watched me
changed, watched me shower
But each week I got flowers
from a grocery store
To show color adored to feel young again
and maybe more
Is this even legal?
Where’s a needle, is this a joke?
No days off
And my family knows so low
so low
so low
My family says so
Watched me bathe, sit down behave
We ask the questions
We’re here to save you
Save me from what?
Save me from what…
Edge of reason to feel alive,
Insanity steals most hearts
Most cry
I should have died I’m not gone lie
How I made it. ******* surprise
Insanity reveals realest eyes
Born I won’t even try
My feet look down I wanted to run
Spirit out of body, the pain I was done in
Elevate elevate, it came out of body
It touch the ceiling, it wasn’t a haunting
It was pain, looked up
God for sure
He knew I knew, so I flew
It didn’t feel normal, but what is normal
I say it again, what the **** is normal
They broke my face
Jesus, my right hand
If I could back in time
I’d find my right hand
I’d ******* kill’em
Because I took a stand
Show them where I’m from
Do you think they’d smile again?
And be so comfortable with me and grin
I’m so kind, I’m for free
Think again my friends
Think again
I’d murder
Put a smile on my face
To save my grace I’d kill’em
Where are you from ???
Where are you from ???
Things make you go
“HMMMMMMMM …”
Is it a name? Is it in
my blood?
The illusion of money
and fame is a flood
Hahaha I will make sure I do the
right thing
Sit down and humble,
Sit down and stay humble
Bumble B is me !!!
Like a wasp I sting
Do you want me to sting?
Do you want me to sting?
The ring higher please
Ring higher
My lighter it’s lit
It’s lit
I serve now with just spit
Significance in just spit
Or just swallow, go hollow
And follow the word
Transcription: Twitter
