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It should have been one of the happiest moments of Nicole Kidman<\/strong><\/a>\u2019s life. In 2003, the actress, 56, won her very first Academy Award for portraying Virginia Woolf in The Hours<\/em>. Yet she had never felt lower. That same year, Nicole finalized her divorce from Tom Cruise<\/strong>.<\/p>\n \u201cI was struggling with things in my personal life, yet my professional life was going so well,\u201d she reveals in Dave Karger<\/strong>\u2019s new book, 50 Oscar Nights: Iconic Stars & Filmmakers on Their Career-Defining Wins<\/em>.<\/p>\n \u201cThat\u2019s what happens, right?\u201d Nicole tried to celebrate at the annual Vanity Fair<\/em> afterparty \u2014 \u201cI literally walked in, carried [my Oscar] around, was completely overwhelmed, emotional, shaking\u201d \u2014 but eventually returned to her hotel.<\/p>\n \u201cI sat on the floor of the hotel eating french fries and a burger with my family and went to bed,\u201d she recalls. \u201cThat\u2019s when it hit me. I went, \u2018I need to find my love; I need a love in my life.\u2019 Because this is supposed to be when you go, \u2018This is ours.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n Two years later, Nicole would meet her future husband, Keith Urban<\/strong><\/a>, and the couple went on to welcome two daughters, Sunday Rose, 15, and Faith, 12. \u201cShe\u2019s super grateful to have found him,\u201d a source exclusively tells Life & Style<\/em>. \u201cNicole wanted to share her life with someone, and Keith makes her feel loved every day.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n