The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives<\/em> star Mikayla Matthews<\/strong><\/a> has a lot more to say about Taylor Frankie Paul<\/strong> <\/a>calling her out as a \u201csnake friend.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cCould probably write a book on everything I\u2019ve had to say on this. Nothing I said denied that she\u2019s experienced pain, trauma, or difficult things, there\u2019s literally no question about that,\u201d Matthews, 26, wrote in the comments section of a fan video discussing the drama between her and Paul, which was shared via Instagram<\/a> on Sunday, May 10. \u201cTwo things can be true. Someone can be hurting and still hurt people around them in the process.\u201d<\/p>\n Matthews added that she \u201cnever\u201d wanted to see Paul \u201cfail, suffer, or be canceled.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cIt was about no longer wanting to publicly participate in or normalize a cycle that was affecting everyone around it, especially where children and repeated violence were involved,\u201d she responded.<\/p>\n Matthews also called Paul out for claiming that someone had been a bad friend to her.<\/p>\n \u201cWhat also won\u2019t fly with me is the bad friends and snake friends narrative. Especially when so many of us spent years putting genuine care, time, energy, and emotional labor into trying to support her through incredibly toxic situations,\u201d she wrote. \u201cLike the weeks that we took away from our newborn stage, not even months postpartum, but weeks postpartum To check in on her and support her journey going on The Bachelorette, even though we knew she wasn\u2019t taking it seriously and she wasn\u2019t ready to go on it.\u201d<\/p>\n Matthews also pointed out that she\u2019s been battling her own issues recently, as she confirmed her separation from husband Jace Terry during season 4 of Mormon Wives earlier this year. She subsequently relocated to Hawaii to treat her ongoing chronic illness battle. (She and Terry, 30, share four kids.)<\/p>\n , \u201cTo take years out of our lives, time away from our families, from our own mental sanity, from our own healing, from many of our own \u2018Mother\u2019s Day\u2019 moments, to put a friend and their trauma first out of genuine friendship and care, just to have it diminished and shat on while it gets chalked up to an attitude of \u2018I can do what I want and say whatever I want\u2019 while it is hurting people around them is toxic and destructive behavior,\u201d Matthews argued. \u201cCompassion cannot only exist when it benefits one person.\u201d<\/p>\n While Matthews and Paul are not in the best place at this moment, she clarified that she still wishes her former friend the best.<\/p>\n \u201cI have not once attacked her character or tried to tear her down the way everyone so badly want people to believe I have,\u201d she explained. \u201cIf anything, I\u2019ve consistently acknowledged that she loves her kids and that she has a good heart and I want nothing more than for her to be happy and healed.\u201d<\/p>\n The Mormon Wives costars have been going back and forth since earlier this month when fans accused Matthews of not being supportive of Paul and costar Jessi Draper during their difficult times.<\/p>\n Paul has been dealing with multiple legal issues over the past few years stemming from domestic disputes with her ex Dakota Mortensen. The exes were both granted protective orders against each other by a judge last month and Paul currently does not have custody of the pair\u2019s 2-year-old son, Ever. Draper, for her part, is in the middle of a divorce with her estranged husband, Jordan Ngatikaura. Ngatikaura, 31, filed for divorce from Draper in March. (Paul is also mom to daughter Indy and son Ocean, whom she shares with ex-husband Tate Paul. Draper and Ngatikaura share kids Jagger and Jovi.)<\/p>\n While Paul and Draper have continued to make headlines over their ups and downs, Matthews addressed claims<\/a> she hasn\u2019t been asupportive costar or friend on Saturday, May 9.<\/p>\n \u201cI have felt absolutely sick to my stomach and horrible for what everyone involved must be feeling and going through,\u201d Matthews wrote via Instagram while defending herself. \u201cHowever, it is not my job to enable poor or dangerous behavior from either party, especially when children are involved. That doesn\u2019t mean I don\u2019t love them or want the best for their individual futures. It just means I cannot sit here and pretend it\u2019s OK that years of destructive behavior are now being discussed more than ever online and turned into a \u2018pick a side\u2019 game.\u201d<\/p>\n
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