Jessi Ngatikaura<\/strong><\/a> got emotional while discussing her plastic surgery results<\/a>.<\/p>\n Ngatikaura, 33, took to TikTok<\/a> on Thursday, March 5, to get candid about her look after getting an upper and lower blepharoplasty and fat injections in her face. While doing press for season 4 of The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives<\/em>, Ngatikaura shared that she was \u201crightfully so\u201d getting hate comments about her appearance<\/a>.<\/p>\n \u201cI want to tell everyone that I am extremely unhappy with my results and I didn\u2019t quite understand what I was getting into,\u201d she shared. \u201cI went in for a lower bleph and then I asked about an upper bleph and ended up getting that. Did not want that [fat] grafting, to be honest. I just listened to a suggestion [without] really understanding what it was, what it was going to do, what the results were gonna be, what the recovery was gonna be.\u201d<\/p>\n Ngatikaura \u2014 who previously shared she spent $25,000 on her recent procedures \u2014 went on to say that she wished she hadn\u2019t gotten the grafting in her face, which she was told would be a substitute for face fillers and would help \u201cproduce collagen\u201d in the areas where she lost weight in her face.<\/p>\n \u201cAt the end of the day, I wished there had been more information,\u201d she added. Ngatikaura noted that the grafting was also \u201cput in [her] lips,\u201d which she didn\u2019t \u201cask for [and] didn\u2019t want.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cIt\u2019s made my lips really lumpy,\u201d she explained. \u201cI have one that dips. I\u2019m getting a lot of comments about my lip filler, and I agree, it looks awful. My face looks terrible.\u201d<\/p>\n Ngatikaura noted that she looked \u201cmore swollen\u201d while filming the video because she got Kybella to try and remove \u201csome of the fat\u201d but explained that \u201cgrafting is extremely hard to remove in the face.\u201d<\/p>\n Don\u2019t know what\u2019s going on with my nose with this filter.. but be kind \ud83e\udef6\ud83c\udffc<\/p>\n \u266c original sound \u2013 Jessi Draper<\/a> <\/p>\n<\/section>\n<\/blockquote>\n \u201cI\u2019m really insecure,\u201d she added through tears. \u201cI understand that I look really different and I hate it. I look back at how I used to look [and] I watched season 4<\/a> and I\u2019m like, \u2018Damn. I looked really good.\u2019 I wish I could have seen that. I\u2019m gonna cry talking about it.\u201d<\/p>\n Ngatikaura shared that she went \u201cway too far\u201d trying to tinker with her \u201cinsecurities\u201d and has learned to \u201cnever touch\u201d her face again \u2014 \u201coutside of Botox.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI wish I saw my inner beauty,\u201d Ngatikaura said. She also encouraged her fans to do more research before getting work done<\/a>. \u201cThis last surgery ruined my life. I look f***ing hideous in season 5<\/a>. It\u2019s ruined my career.\u201d<\/p>\n You have successfully subscribed.<\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n
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