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Letting it out. During the season 3 premiere of The Kardashians<\/em>, Kim Kardashian<\/strong><\/a> shed light on how she handled Kanye West<\/strong><\/a>\u2019s various social media outbursts<\/a> \u2014 including when her ex-husband alleged she had an affair with Drake<\/strong><\/a>.<\/p>\n The 42-year-old reality star told mom Kris Jenner<\/strong><\/a> on the Thursday, May 25, episode that she was \u201chaving an anxiety attack\u201d and \u201con the verge of tears\u201d all morning as Kanye\u2019s actions made headlines.<\/a><\/p>\n \u201cEven through all of the craziness<\/a> \u2014 of everything that Kanye says about us \u2014 I never comment. I never post. He has made up the most insane narrative about you and [my sex tape] and we stay silent. We stay silent through all the lies and all the stuff,\u201d Kim said, referring to Kanye, 45, suggesting Kris, 67, leaked her daughter\u2019s infamous sex tape<\/a> in 2007.<\/p>\n The pair \u2014 who share North, 9, Saint, 7, Chicago, 5, and Psalm, 4 \u2014 split in 2021 and finalized their divorce in 2022<\/a>. Amid their breakup, the rapper, 45, often took to Instagram to slam Kim\u2019s coparenting<\/a> skills, her romance with then-beau Pete Davidson<\/strong><\/a> and Kris\u2019 momager ways.<\/p>\n \u201cI think at this point, I just assume everything I text Kanye is going to be on the internet,\u201d Kim noted in a confessional. \u201cI think I can handle anything. I just get really heartbroken from my mom \u2014 that she has to deal with so much, you know, from so many different sides of people coming at her.\u201d<\/p>\n During their chat, Kris reminded her daughter that she \u201ccan\u2019t control somebody else\u201d and Kanye is \u201cdoing this to himself.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cEven just, like, how he looks so down on me for, like, my tape and brings it up all over town, all over the media \u2014 thanks for reminding people once again,\u201d Kim responded. \u201cAll of his shenanigans \u2014 I don\u2019t even know what the f\u2014k to call it \u2014 is going to be far more damaging to the kids one day than my tape will ever be. And I have to sit here and not say anything ever because I know one day my kids will appreciate that and I know that, like, is the best thing for that. And by the way, I\u2019m the one where s\u2014t could be going down and I get in the car and every day the kids want to blast dad\u2019s music. And I\u2019m like, \u2018He\u2019s the best! Yeah.\u2019 And I put it on and we\u2019re singing along and inside I\u2019m, like, dying because I will be his biggest cheerleader to them forever.\u201d<\/p>\n Kim pointed out that in some interviews, Kanye claimed he would still be his ex\u2019s \u201cforever protector,\u201d but then he slams her in other posts.<\/p>\n \u201cHe is the one that is hurting me the most. He was the one that started a rumor that said I was hooking up with Drake, having an affair. Our full marriage, he accused me of that publicly,\u201d she said. \u201cSo the person that\u2019s supposed to protect me the most \u2014 publicly \u2014 would accuse me of having an affair throughout our whole marriage. I really can\u2019t wrap my head around how he thinks he is a protector.\u201d<\/p>\n Kanye, who has feuded with Drake over the years, first publicly discussed speculation about Kim and the Degrassi<\/em> alum back in 2018. Kim has denied ever having<\/a> a relationship with the \u201cOne Dance\u201d musician.<\/p>\n In a confessional, Kim claimed that the rapper has asked for \u201capproval\u201d over what she says about him on The Kardashians. \u201cAnd I\u2019ll say, \u2018Well, you just talked about me in this song, this song, this interview, this interview and you didn\u2019t ask my permission.\u2019 And I never say anything bad,\u201d she said. \u201cI never say anything negative. If I say I\u2019m exhausted, I feel guilty about that. I am f\u2014king exhausted!\u201d<\/p>\n Kim got emotional during her chat with Kris.<\/p>\n \u201cFor once, can everyone just get their s\u2014t together around me, so I can f\u2014king lose it? Just once,\u201d she cried. \u201cI just want to lose it once. I want to have a bad day \u2014 and I can\u2019t. I can\u2019t even be overwhelmed and have a bad day because no one else has this s\u2014t together. \u2026 It just felt bad, you know, and I don\u2019t know why I feel bad. \u2026 I don\u2019t know what to do. I don\u2019t want to be a part of this narrative. And it\u2019s like, \u2018When is this ever gonna end?\u2019 Like, it never will. \u2026 I\u2019m stuck with this for the rest of my life.\u201d<\/p>\n The tears continued in her confessional. \u201cI don\u2019t want to talk about this anymore,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n When a producer asked, \u201cWhat\u2019s making you cry?\u201d Kim replied: \u201cEverything.\u201d<\/p>\n