\n Jackie Bonds<\/span> Courtesy of Netflix<\/span><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n
Homesick. Jackelina Bonds<\/strong><\/a> revealed why she really broke down<\/a> during her and fianc\u00e9 Marshall Glaze<\/strong>\u2019s Mexican getaway on season 4 of Love Is Blind<\/em><\/a> \u2014 and how she feels now.<\/p>\n \u201cMy father, he\u2019s sick,\u201d Jackie, 27, told Entertainment Weekly<\/em><\/a> on Friday, March 24. \u201cHe has cancer, so I have to take care of him when I go home every weekend. I make sure that my parents are good, the bill is paid \u2014 my dad can\u2019t work no more. I have a lot of family stuff that I have to tend to.\u201d<\/p>\n The dental assistant explained: \u201cFamily always comes first. And also, my brother being released from prison, it\u2019s like I have another person to take care of.\u201d<\/p>\n Fans first learned of Jackie\u2019s family turmoil during episode 4 of Love Is Blind<\/em><\/a>, which is currently streaming on Netflix. During the \u201cPlaying With Fire\u201d episode, newly engaged couple Jackie and Marshall, 27, explored Mexico as a way to get to know each other outside the pods<\/a>.<\/p>\n Their playful lunch date, however, quickly turned sour when viewers saw Jackie start crying in their hotel while thinking about her family back home. She noted that she was afraid she\u2019d push Marshall away because her loved ones aren\u2019t \u201cperfect\u201d and proceeded to have another meltdown after locking herself in the bathroom.<\/p>\n \u201cMy life is not for someone who can\u2019t be up to par in supporting me, and just making sure that you understand my life and knowing that this is always going to be a part of me,\u201d Jackie told EW after fans saw Marshall try and support her on camera. \u201cThat was an emotional moment for me because I didn\u2019t feel like, at that moment, Marshall was up to par and ready for all of the reality that I have back home.\u201d<\/p>\n The reality star further explained her self-proclaimed \u201cmental breakdown\u201d via Instagram<\/a> on Monday, March 27.<\/p>\n \u201cMy father at the time was fighting Stage 2 head and neck cancer<\/a> [and] had a feeding tube in his stomach, had the back of his tongue removed and had 11 cancerous lymph nodes removed from his neck a few months before I filmed the show,\u201d Jackie wrote at the time. \u201cI come home every weekend to make sure I pay his bills, clean the house, and make sure my father and mother are good.\u201d<\/p>\n She confessed: \u201cI felt guilty being happy and enjoying my time in Mexico because my family deserves time away. My \u2018mental breakdown\u2019 in Mexico was all the emotions of being head of the house, having my family depending on me and having the weight of my emotions and feelings all colliding at once.\u201d<\/p>\n The Washington resident added that she \u201cwill always take care of my father, cancer will never take him from me.\u201d While Marshall told EW<\/em> on Friday that it was \u201cnot my place\u201d to talk about Jackie\u2019s hardships<\/a>, he revealed he was \u201cglad\u201d he could be there \u201cto help her through that.\u201d<\/p>\n Sign up for Us Weekly’s free, daily newsletter<\/a> and never miss breaking news or exclusive stories about your favorite celebrities, TV shows and more!<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n All-new episodes of Love Is Blind<\/em><\/a> season 4 drop on Netflix every Friday.<\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n![\"Love](\"https:\/\/www.usmagazine.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/03\/Jaquelina-Bonds-explains-mental-breakdown-love-is-blind-2.jpg?w=700&quality=86&strip=all\")
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\n Jackie and Micah<\/span> Cr. Monty Brinton\/Netflix<\/span><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n